Lessons behind Karmic Soulmate / False Twin Flame and True Twin Flame Journey

In the Twin Flame community, there is a lot of talks around the runner and chaser dynamics between twin flames. For the longest time, this did not resonate with me as I was still trying to figure out if my husband is my twin flame or a soulmate. I did not experience the runner and chaser issue because I met my husband online, dated very shortly and decided to get married within a short period of time.

I had a nagging feeling that he is not my twin flame. Even though we are very similar in some ways yet opposite in other ways. Nevertheless, both of us went through 10 years of triggering each other's emotional wounds, healing each other and transforming together. He is my karmic soulmate.

When we both encountered scams a few times in our lives, that is when we realize we have some past life karmic issues to resolve. We went for an akashic record reading and found out that we had at least two past lives of money and relationship issues.

There was one past life of both of us being a married couple who were very wealthy but he was infidel. Another past life, again of us married but being very poor and had to give away our son thinking that he would be well taken care of by a rich family. But it was mistake, our son was ill-treated to be a servant. So there was a lot of blaming between us for making the wrong decision to give our son away. So this pattern of blaming each other and money issues have always been playing out in our current life.

My karmic soul mate's vibrations is very close to a twin flame. The purpose is to help me evolve so that I will be more ready to meet my twin.

After we have done our healing, then came my twin flame. Even though we have not met in person, I looked at our synastry astrological chart and there is a conjunct of the asteroids ISIS and Osiris, which is an indication of twin flames.

Even though I have been contemplating whether I will ever meet my real twin flame, my twin did appear but only for a short while. The feeling is intense and different from the other relationships I had in the past or currently. We can feel each other's energies or moods. Everyone has the ability to be telepathic or empath but twin flames will feel each other even more intensely because they are one soul. It is painfully difficult not being able to see each other over the distance, at least it is how I felt.

We triggered each other's wounds so much that we feel repelled. He mirrored my shadow of insecurity, low self-worth, jealousy, needy, distrust and abandonment wounds. I probably mirrored his shadow of betrayal, distrust and avoidance wounds.

So yeah, runner and chaser dynamics is the typical twin flame reaction when they confront each other's shadows. The toxic Masculine will run away from the toxic Feminine.

I am thankful to my twin for showing me I still have some inner work to do to clear my shadows. The distrust has nothing to do with my twin flame. It was me. I realize there was a memory that I was holding onto when I felt abandoned during my kindergarten. My sibling was late in picking me up while I was crying and thinking my family abandoned me. I had a realization during my inner child healing that whenever I felt despondent in life, I always felt abandoned by the universe. This is because I did not trust in the divine timing of waiting. During the period of waiting for my sibling, it felt like ages and it was excruciating to wait. Now that I look back at those periods of waiting for things to happen.........whether it was in relationships, my business or other matters, it was the same excruciating feeling. All the years of pain, grief, sadness came pouring out in tears and I cried out loud like a child. It was such a relief that I finally realize why I did not have faith and trust in relationships and the universe and its divine timing. It goes all the way back to my childhood.

My twin has also shown me that he is in abundance and reflected that I have issues related to not deserving abundance and poor self-image. We have a large age gap and I felt undeserving.

I don't know if I will meet my twin flame physically in 3D but if it is meant to happen, it will happen. If he decides to move on, I will respect that too. We do have a mission here to build some communities as a part of humanitarian effort and awakening the consciousness. I trust that everything will happen in Divine Timing and Divine Plan.

For now, I will just focus on more self-love, self-care, my soul purpose, healing work and my own awakening.

For those who are still struggling to chase after their twin flame, please stop all your efforts. Get back into alignment with your inner self. Focus on yourself, love yourself, respect yourself. Heal your shadows of insecurity, neediness, jealousy and trust issues. It is only after healing yourself that your energies will feel more magnetic and attractive. Otherwise it is very repelling to the Divine Masculine. Do not project energies of desperation. Focus on your life purpose of helping others. Get busy so that your mind is occupied. Our mind becomes obsessed with thoughts of the twin flame because we allow our mind to be controlled by our insecurity and neediness.

If you are still having doubts whether it is your twin flame or soul mate, then it is likely that the person is not your twin flame because you will recognize your twin even without meeting in person. You will just know this is your twin. The telepathic connection is strong even across different countries or dimensions. You will simply have an inner knowingness when your twin appears. It is a strong magnetic pull that draws you both together. You will see a lot of repeated numbers as 11:11, 12:12, 12:21, 1111, 2222, 333, 444, 555, or any repeated number sequences. It is a sign that your twin flame will be thinking of you.

But whenever the shadows appear, it becomes a push to repel from each other.

So think about why the magnetic pull even happened in the first place. What is it that attracts? It is the high vibrations of love that are magnetizing. Focus on the unconditional love, confidence, self-worth and passion for life. This is the only way towards the sacred union of the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine.

The twin flame journey is much more challenging than any other types of relationships or soul agreement. Our twin is our mirror. Our soul mate can also be our mirror. But when twin flames unite, it is for a common mission. Soul mates come together to learn lessons, evolve so that we can meet our twin flame. But not every twin flame will get to unite unless they are ready for their mission.

This may or may not resonate with your twin flame journey because everyone is different but there are a few traits of twin flames who will push you out of your comfort zone:

1) large age gaps

2) living in different countries or cultures

3) having different religions

4) having different life styles

5) incomes gaps

6) opposite personalities eg. introvert vs extrovert, homely vs adventurous

7) common in terms of beliefs, ideals, goals, mission, purpose

8) different ray beings

There are twin flames who are from the same ray family or same Monadic ray. This is known as the Monadic Twin Flames. There are others who are Split Soul Twin Flames.

In my own reading, I resonate as a Blue Ray being first incarnating in Arcturus while my twin flame is a Gold Ray being first incarnating in Antares. Antares is considered the stargate representing Mother God Consciousness while Arcturus is the stargate representing Father God Consciousness.

For me, I am a Blue Ray consciousness also known as the Oraphim. My twin flame is a Gold Ray consciousness also known as the Seraphim. I have not known any twin flames who identify themselves in this way. I am still exploring and investigating about twin flames origin.

Somehow, I feel a missing part of me even though I tell myself I am whole and complete, I am not broken. It is this nagging feeling of incompleteness that keeps me thinking my twin is still somewhere out there. Perhaps I am a split soul twin flame. The answer will probably come if I do unite with my twin, one day.

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